My mom has informed us that she wants to change up the bathrooms. She has some color swatches for some paint colors that she is interested in, she wants new toilet seats, and she is also looking at new faucets for both sinks.
She has some fabulous colors picked out. I am guessing that I will be the one doing the painting, unless she decides to hire someone. After that comes the fun part of buying all new stuff to match the new colors.
I have to live vicariously through her, since I no longer have my home.
Posted in: Misc.
It has been quite a long time since I have done anything in the way of web design. I used to love it, from beginning to end. Now? Not so much.
Family used to volunteer me to do small sites here and there for other people. That got old quick. I was never very good with search engine optimization either. I was more into the design. I guess if you want a lot of traffic, submitting your site to free directories is a good way to get indexed. I may try it, who knows.
I really do not mind being ‘just another blogger’. As with any other situation, the more popular you are, the more crap you have to deal with! So, I am ok with my little corner of the web over here being all nice and cozy.
Back to designing though, I have tried several times to sit here and hack something out, instead of using a template that some one else designed. My heart is just not in it anymore. I am in a never ending funk, I guess.
So, templates it shall be!
Posted in: Misc.
One of the joys of aging is arthritis. (Can you FEEL the sarcasm right there?) My mom has it. T has it. And I am wondering if that is not what is wrong with my hands. It is not carpal tunnel, that I am pretty sure of. I would like to think that I am too young for arthritis, but I simply need to stop fooling myself on that one.
This has me wondering about arthritis pain treatment. I know that there are a ton of drugs out there. And I know that there are also a lot of natural ways to go about combating the pain and stiffness that comes with arthritis. I am just not sure which way I would want to go.
It causes a lot of pain now, I can only imagine how great it will be when I am 80.
Posted in: Misc.
So, all of this talk about TOM and my face breaking out had me on the internet looking for ways to rid myself of the giant zits from H-E-double hockey sticks. I came across this little site called skin id reviews, and there was a post there about stress and break outs.
I definitely stress when TOM is here. I know part of this is hormones, but now I have to wonder how much stress causes it. Telling me not to stress when TOM is here and I am PMSing is like telling a newborn not to cry. It just isn’t going to happen! Ha.
With all of the stress in my life right now, it is a surprise to me that I am not one giant walking pustule. (man, I HATE that word. ick.)
Posted in: Life, Misc.
So, as most of you know, I am currently in school. It is going along well. I am anxious to be done with it, so that I can land a job !!
We have a very long road ahead of us, and to be honest, I am not sure that T and I will come out of this together. I am trying, but it is just too far out to say how it is going to end up.
Things are okay right now. He is making progress in cleaning up his mess. He has made HUGE progress, as a matter of fact. Right now it is just a matter of tying up some loose ends, paying off his fines, and moving on. He is in with VA for his health issues, as well as for the addiction issues. He has received counseling, and was told by the psych counselor that he is not a ‘typical’ addict. I think he referred to T as a ’situational addict’. This makes sense to me, as the only times T has taken that road, were in times of extreme mental duress. That is not to make an excuse. It is just the truth. Most of us can handle stress. T can for a certain period of time. He has battled extreme depression and anxiety pretty much his entire life. Either way, an addict is an addict.
Could he have made better choices? Well, yes. Technically though, his mental state was so screwed up at that point, that no, he could NOT make the better choice. Anyway, it was quite validating, at least for me, to hear this from a professional. I at least know now that should he start to unravel mentally again, I have a fighting chance at getting him help BEFORE he derails. I can walk him right into the building at the VA and they will counsel, and keep him, if necessary.
And with that, I am off to do some school work.
Posted in: Life.
TOM is here. (you ladies know TOM.. that time of month..)
TOM and I do not get along well at all. In fact, he is downright abusive at times, with the bloating and the cramps. TOM is a jerk. He causes me migraines, and loss of sleep.
All joking aside, I feel as if I have been hit by a train. I am SO jealous of those of you who skip through flowery meadows with TOM, while I get to spend 3 days confined to my house in misery. Argh. Every month I say that I am going to do research for the best acne treatments out there, because at almost 37 years old, it is a little embarrassing to look like this.
I have a zit the size of Mars on my chin right now. I also have two other smaller ones on the other side of my chin. Seriously? I feel like I am 12 again. This would be a great feeling under any other circumstance!
I can hear TOM snickering.
Posted in: Life.
I have decided to do the Couch to 5k program that my friend Linda told me about. This should be interesting! Hah! I am so NOT a runner. At all. I am going to attempt to change that though. I can take my muscles burning. I can take working up a sweat. What I cannot take is feeling as if my lungs are on fire. Argh. That is why I was never into running. I hate that.
Regardless, I start tomorrow morning. The treadmill WILL be my friend.
It is a simple program really, designed to take couch potatoes and turn them into runners. Each day at the gym, I have to warm up for 5 minutes, then alternate between periods of running and walking. You do this until you can run for 30 minutes.
I am excited to start. I was supposed to get on this a week ago, but I had an ingrown toenail issue. Ugh. It seems to FINALLY have resolved itself, so tomorrow it is. Wish me and my lungs a LOT of luck!
Posted in: Crazy., Life, Self Improvement.
I hate when my desk is all a mess. Ugh. I just had to take an hour or so to go through all of the crap that was piling up. I shredded some junk. I organized the important stuff, and did some filing. I ditched a bunch of pens that no longer work too.
These pens have been sitting here for months. Each time I grab one and attempt to use it, to no avail might I add, I then PUT IT BACK. Why do I do that?? Hah!
Anyway, they are now in the trash. I also noticed that a lot of the things on my desk are promotional products! Pens, my mouse pad, a small stapler, two of my flash drives, and even the mug that I use to hold the pens.
I am kind of a pen junkie. I am not partial to any one pen, but if it writes smooth and does not glop, I hang on to it! And I love Sharpies. I have one in just about every color.
So, the desk is clean. All of my things are where they belong. I even dusted! And polished! Go me. *fist pump*
Posted in: Life, Silly.
This ’starting all over’ thing really sucks. I am trying to look at it in a positive light, but it is so hard. People go on and on about how what we lost was just ’stuff’, but I assure you, it is much more than that.
It is hard to set up any kind of budget without any real kind of income. I am just going to continue to do what I always did. It worked for us. What did NOT work, was that we did not put enough into savings. That will be different this time, for sure. Unforeseen medical issues can destroy you financially. If you had told me even 5 years ago that this is where we would be, I’d have scoffed. Live and learn and all that…
So, do any of you have any budgeting tips that you would care to share?? We had a pretty solid budget, but we did not clip coupons or anything like that. I do now! I am actually following Couponmom’s book. If I can save half of my grocery bill, that would be HUGE savings right there.
How do you save?
Posted in: Life.
So, as I was sitting here feeling sorry for myself a little while ago, I tried to give myself an attitude adjustment. I really do try hard to keep things in the right perspective. I know that no matter what my situation is, it could always be worse. Even though my thyroid is jacked and I have to be on medication for it, at least I don’t need hemorrhoid relief!! Haha! See? There is ALWAYS an upside!!
All joking aside, it really is not the end of the world. I hate that I allow myself to get that down about things. Sometimes, I just need to have that conversation within my head, telling myself to get a grip already! Hopefully, an adjustment with my meds will have me back to feeling better very soon.
Posted in: Uncategorized.
