I cannot WAIT to be able to go camping. The first few times will be hard, as T will not be with us. We had often talked about taking M camping.. so it will be bittersweet. However, I must make new memories now. I can no longer focus on the past. Our future is too important to dwell on the past and to let my emotions take over.
This humidity is ..well..gross. Every year at this time, I reach my breaking point with this nastiness. I love being able to spend more time outside in the cooler weather. I love taking the pea to the playground. I love sitting on the beach when it is windy and chilly. That air is good for the soul.
Money is going to be SO extremely tight for M and I over the next few years. I am going to have to be super frugal and very smart with my money. This schooling thing was meant for me to get a job making money to supplement T’s income, NOT to be the sole breadwinner. I doubt that I will even make enough to live on our own. I will have to get a room mate.
That makes me feel like such a failure.
I started looking in to going back to school for something else. Like, a real school, not this online stuff. Just to even get in the door, I would have to take 2 or 3 semesters of general courses before I could enroll in the classes for what I am interested in (radiology..taking MRIs and CT scans and such.. good money in that!)
The program itself is 2 years. I simply do not have that kind of time. Ugh. Frustrating. Maybe next year, when M is in school…but for right now I have to finish what I started and get a job.
And with that, I need to get my crap together so that I can study later this evening…
Posted in: Life, Self Improvement.
I totally forgot to take pictures of dinner. Meh. The recipe came out great. The avocado was a wee bit too smooshy for my liking, but the flavor of it all was delish! My mom, who hates avocados, ate three helpings! LOL.
And with that, I am off to bed. I have a Body Pump class at 8:30 tomorrow morning. I have to be up at 5 to take my mom to the airport, and then class, THEN I gotta get some stuff at the store. Then when I get home, I am dusting the hell out of this living room. It is going to start weighing things down soon if I don’t. LOL.
Posted in: Life.
I am going to bake some chicken tonight… and I am making this as a side. I bought the ingredients the other day and have been dying to make it! It looks delicious, and it is chock full of goodness.
I will post a pic later and let yah know how it turned out!
Posted in: Foodie.
When I lived in Pennsylvania, there was a boy a few years older than me who lived down the road a bit. He was the only kid around, as we lived out in the middle of nowhere. Occasionally, my friend Tina would come over, sometimes bringing along her brother George. I was very isolated there, and I LIKED that. I had lots of time to myself. My inner-loner was really emerging. I was rarely bored. I spent a lot of time outside, exploring.
Scott and I used to spend a lot of time roaming in the woods. We would see deer, and other wild life, often just squatting down and watching them for awhile. We used to shoot his BB gun, play catch or shoot hoops, ride bikes, feed the cows, chase the chickens and sometimes just hang in the house with his grandma Mary and his grandpa Del. I really liked those people. I can remember going down there at Thanksgiving and Christmas, usually to deliver some cards and goodies that my mom had just baked. His family was always so welcoming, and they were a fun bunch. Winters were awesome, as the land between his house and ours was SUPER hilly, and sledding was always so much fun.
His grandpa Del ran a small side business on some land across the street. He cut trees and sold firewood. We used to spend time over there helping him stack it all up, or load it into the backs of customer vehicles. He would have a small bonfire going. I LOVED how the smells of the freshly cut wood and the wood burning in the fire would mingle. It meant winter was coming. There was usually a biting chill in the air, requiring frequent trips over to the bonfire to warm up the hands!
Longer story short, I had always wondered what became of Scott. I found out from my old friend Tina, that he died in a car crash in his senior year of high school.
It hit me like a punch in the gut.
And that surprised me. I mean, I have not seen the kid since 1985. But still. I really, truly had wondered about him a LOT over the years. For the life of me, I could never remember what his last name was, so I couldn’t look him up. And it just made me sad to know that he didn’t go on to have a happy life.
Posted in: Friends, Life.
T just sent off his resume to someone that is interested in him. It is a friend of a friend, so strings can hopefully be pulled. It would be an office job, no field work, which is what he is looking for. Not sure if he can even do that these days, but he is willing to give it a go.
It is also a ways away from where we live now. The drive over and back would be so horrible. Ugh. But, if he gets the job, we do what we have to do. Once we could move over that way, there are PLENTY of nice 3 bedroom houses for rent, well below what would be our price range. This makes me very happy.
So I have decided, as a house warming gift to ourselves, when that times comes, is to get us some towels by matouk. I was just looking at them online and ohmygosh they look like pieces of heaven. I can just imagine what it must be like to wrap one around my freshly showered self!!
We have no towels, bed sheets (heck, we have no bed either!), or drinking glasses. So those are things we definitely need to purchase. I was going to go as cheaply as possible. But you know what? After what I have been through over the last 3 years or so? Pfft. IF we make it outta here together, and into a nice rental, then I am buying some nice, fluffy, wondermous towels!
Posted in: Uncategorized.
My mom decided to look at life insurance quotes, since she had been on the hunt for auto insurance. She gets life insurance through work, but wanted another policy so be able to pay for things here if something should happen to her, until her place could be sold.
I hate thinking about any of it, to be honest. I know how important it is to prepare though. It makes things a lot easier on your loved ones if you have your ducks in a row. My life insurance policy will cover any outstanding bills that I may have, and there will be some to go into an account for M. It is not much, but surely better than nothing.
I also need to revise my living will, as a lot has changed in the past
Posted in: Uncategorized.
She is too much. She has been giving us a fit at bedtime as of late. So last night, I put her to bed and she would not stay. My mom told her that she could sleep in grammy’s bed, so M went into my mom’s room. Mom had just put clean sheets on the bed. They have palm trees on them. So she says to M “Look at all of the pretty palm trees on your pillow! If you be quiet, you can hear the gentle rustle of the fronds, and it will lull you to sleep!”
M waits a minute or two and then says “Grammy. I can’t fall asleep!” And my mom asks her why and she says “Because the palm fronds are rustling too loud… ”
My mom nearly peed herself she was laughing so hard. Haha. Kids… *shakes head*
Posted in: M, Silly.
I have often wondered what happens when one travels abroad, and gets sick or hurt. What happens when you have a travel emergency?? If you have health insurance, does that cover you while you are in another country?
Have any of you ever been hospitalized in another country while traveling? What happened? Is it a big hassle? I am not sure what makes me wonder this stuff. A friend of ours is traveling to Saudi Arabia for work this month. I am sure his employer would see to it that he was taken care of should something happen. It just seems like it would be an extremely scary situation to be in!!
Posted in: Misc.
My mom has been talking about adding me to her insurance policy when we finally get a car. She had called her insurance company to get a quote, and was not really all that happy with the amount they quoted her.
I got online and found this site, insurancespecialists, which allows you to get multiple quotes on ANY kind of insurance. Coolness. I like it when life hands me an easy button! We got a few quotes, and know that when we do get a car, my mom will be switching insurance companies to get the better deal.
I like these comparison type sites. Having no money makes one learn how to be extremely frugal!
Posted in: Misc.
I went to a class at the gym yesterday called Body Combat. Oy. I can barely move today. There was lots of kicking and punching. It was a fun class, and I TOTALLY see myself doing it again. Just not right now. I have to be real with myself. I go to Body Pump twice a week. I wanted to add in a Combat class, but the truth is? I am still very heavy and I am very uncomfortable doing all of that jumping and bouncing around. People say it won’t always be this way, and I know this…
I am on a mission. A mission to get healthy, to be stronger, and thinner. It is not all about the skinny, as I have accepted the fact that I will never be skinny. But I CAN be thinner and stronger and healthier. I have a long way to go. But I am on my way, and that is what counts.
I want to be able to buy lingerie (ooh la la!), and not plus size lingerie either. While some big girls can rock the lingerie, I can not. I want to be able to wear a tank top without fear of killing someone with my big, fat, flabby arms. And yesterday, in class, I was just ALL over the place with the bouncing. Not good. Today, I am in a TON of pain. I can hardly move.
I was very sore from Pump the day before. Doing back to back classes is not wise for me at this point. I cannot do things that leave me unable to move the next day!
Back to that lingerie thing though? I seriously want to be able to ’slip into something sexy’ once in awhile, yah know? To feel..womanly.. LOL, as silly as that sounds coming from ME! Ha.
Posted in: Crazy., Self Improvement.
