On New Years Eve of 2003, T asked me to marry him. Tonight, we committed to trying to make a go of this mess. I know. I KNOW. But I had to make a decision, either way. And I am not ready to let go. I am not ready to give in, or give up.
I [...]
Posts from ‘December, 2009’
Happy New…. Everything.
Too good to be true?
T saw a Doctor today. A homeopathic Doctor. She is a pharmacist as well. She specializes in addiction and mental issues. So his dad paid for a bunch of stuffs, and he started taking all of these supplements and what have you today. She says that by Saturday, T will feel quite a bit different.
He [...]
Purging. This is going to be long.
Some of you know the story. Others don’t. I just NEED to get this off of my chest because it is heartbreaking and the whole mess has me pretty far down right now…. *sigh*
T and I made the decision to buy a home in late 2003. We made sure that our credit was in order. [...]
pondering…
I had this whole HUGE post written out, and decided against it. Sometimes there is just no point in rehashing stuff, yah know?
I removed all the crap, and the point of the post was that after T moved in that crack whore Mitzi, she sent me an email telling me that I was a bad [...]
Two steps forward
and a mile back. That is how my kid makes life sometimes. I just folded ALL of the laundry that I did today. I turn my back for TWO seconds, and she had it all strewn across the room. Nice.
So instead of losing my shit, I asked her to please help me fold it all, [...]
Dreaming…
I need a vacation. LOL.
I know that I do not have a job, and vacations are usually for those that work. But man, what I would give right about now. I was perusing Flickr recently and came across some photos taken from some gulf shores condos in Alabama. It was gorgeous. When I think Alabama, [...]
Brain dump #5850474
It was 4 years ago today that I got a positive result on a pregnancy test. That in itself was exciting, because we had been trying for so long. What was even better was that I did not miscarry, as I had done in the past. She is more than I ever dreamt that she [...]
hmm.
Most of you know that I am not very religious person. T is not either. It is something that both of us struggle with. And it hit me the other day that we never had M baptized. I know that we were planning on it, but just never happened.
I do not know much about [...]
Next stop.. Christmas.
I cannot help but to think about how I would be thin right this very moment, had I been able to get the lap band procedure done. *sigh*
Then again, now that my thyroid issue is worked out, and the meds are working, I do not need the lap band. I CAN lose the weight on [...]
Argh. HOW?
When I packed up and left T, I did it in about 6 to 7 hours. I threw stuff in bags and boxes and pillow cases. NOTHING is marked. I filled an entire Uhual, to the top, plus my truck, my moms CR-V and my ex-bossmans car. THEN, I have gone back to the house [...]